Wednesday, February 15, 2012

I Can.

Mom and Dad's obscenely indulged and chubby midwestern squirrels. 

I've had a few days to mull over my spectacular crash and burn episode during my trip back to the midwest last week.

Initially, my reaction went something like this:

Oh. My. Gosh. I will NEVER travel by myself again. I will never rent a car by myself again. I just can't do this.

But after further reflection, I've decided that that line of reasoning is nothing short of a bucket of nonsense.

No, what I am now thinking is this:

Oh. My. Gosh. How inept I was at deciphering my body's signals. How silly of me to think that I could just blindly push through my crash, and that it was OK to put myself and others in danger simply because I was too proud to admit that I needed help. 

I will NEVER travel without making better plans. I will travel alone again -- but I will honor those messages that my body sends me regardless of what I want to do. Instead of what I CAN do. 

People with far greater disabilities than mine travel and live independent lives, and there's no reason that I can't either. It's just a matter of planning and preparation. All of which take careful thought and plenty of time. 

I can do that. I will do that.


ShEiLa said...

Similar thoughts run through my head... planning is key.

I love the squirrel pic... what is it that they are feeding them? Interested. I have been wanting to feed the squirrels in my daughters yard. (Ft. Wayne, IN)


Julia Oleinik said...

Hi Sheila,

It's a suet package meant for the birds, but the squirrels highjack anything that's even remotely food like.

Debbie said...

Oh Julia, I cried as I read your post on your crash & burn as I can totally relate. Luckily I have been at home when the really bad ones hit. I hesitate to travel anywhere with a group & have limited my traveling only to visit my children & grandchildren....and that is carefully planned. I have finally accepted that I am sick and give myself permission to rest when my body is screaming. However, I refuse to let Sjogren's take control of my life. In fact today will be low key because I am driving 4 hrs. tomorrow to attend grandparent's day at my grandson's school on Friday. :-)

kd said...

You're always so insightful!

Curious about something "sjogren silly" :)