Yes. That is indeed my foot.
Johanna recently left this comment on one of my posts about a new commitment to exercise:
I just found your blog and OMG, thank you! Real talk from real people that isn't all doom and gloom. I struggle with exercise as well, and that quote really hit me. I am really struggling with fatigue and flu-type pain that hits every work day about mid-afternoon. But I have to start working movement more into my day. Thank you for your post of accountability and for sharing your journey.Oh, right. I DID promise to be accountable to y'all and report my exercise progress. Thanks for the reminder, Johanna. So as promised, here is an update on my commitment to increase my exercise. And I have to say overall, I have. My motivation source is partly from within, and partly because I made a very public statement about that. The result is that in spite of several days during which I felt significant fatigue, I managed to haul my butt up off the couch and do something. Anything.
This made me feel that I had made some progress, but my attitude changed when I had to share the total number of minutes that I had exercised with the rest of a wellness class that I am taking. It didn't take long before my 120 minute week total went from spectacular to pathetic in my opinion after several members reported ten mile hikes and daily sixty minute running sessions on their treadmills.
Whoa. Deflated my puffed with pride ego as fast as a thumbtack can pop a balloon. I had to do some serious positive self-talk sessions during which I reminded myself yet again of the realities of my energy management; which simply can't be compared to others' abilities.
So after class last week, I mustered up some courage and struck up a conversation with our instructor. I shared my disease and resulting physical limitations with her; as well as the frustration and envy that I felt after seeing other class members accomplishments.
Her response was fantastic. "I am sorry that I was so insensitive. I will continue to encourage exercise, but won't ask participants to publicly share their actual numbers with this and all of my upcoming classes. I think that I may need to learn more about the challenges that my class members are dealing with so that I can address issues that are outside what we consider the norm, as well as emphasizing the importance of realistic progress."
We went on to have a very enjoyable thirty minute conversation, and as we said goodbye I felt as though my concerns had been authentically HEARD. What a rare thing. And a very good thing. Makes a girl want to go take a walk.